On a Day Like Today

what a day.. today is the 2nd day of study week but so far nothing is in progress..
they started to post our carry marks on the board and i found the result for my algebra 2 was so frustrating.. Prof should've understood of my current condition.. why i didn't attend his tutorial & quiz because i had another class to attend (aircraft structures).. even Capt Syzl helped me for my flight mechanics because he knows the difficulties i have to face and how it affected my studies although i thought he was the meanest lecturer there is..

its been a tough semester for me that i had walk with crutches.. climbing those stairs up to level 3 for lectures.. my movement is still limited.. its hard for me to study by myself so i need to move to other houses just to study.. damn.. because of the metal inside my left tibia, i may have lost my chance to fly(hopefuly not) but i dont wanna lose the chance to serve the air force as an officer..

and i just dont have the guts to face prof just to discuss this matter.. all i can do now is pray.. and get my lazy ass workin..

god, please give me the strength that i need..

-LD-

i can finally walk again!~

this morning i went to hospital sultanah bahiyah for an appointment..
i was accompanied by afiq and we were waiting for an hour for the transport..
he should have been with the royal thailand air force cadets..
accompanying their visit to the butterwoth air base.. but he was with me instead..
and once we arrived, we waited for almost 3 hours to see the doctor..
there were too many people..
it was then.. the doctor told me the good news..

"you can walk.. no need to rely on those crutches anymore.." she said..
yippie!! after all these 4 months, i don't have to carry those crutches anymore..
or.. the crutches carry me.. whatever!~

can i run? can i jump from 12 feet wall? can i carry log on my shoulder?
she advised me not to do so.. huhuhuhu.. which means i can still have my rest..
escaping all those military exercises.. whahaha!~

hell ya, buddy.. i am so happy right now..

-LIL DEMON-

wut the hell am i doin here!!?

hurm..!? me? writing a blog? wtf?
well actually it seems like i have nothing else to do..
then wut about studies? fuck it!!
i have a problem concentrating the lectures in class
so.. its hard for me to study by myself.. i need a tutor..
not a lecturer standing in front of the class mumbling bout nuthin
but ways to make myself sleepy..
all the calculation makes me feel like counting sheeps..
really.. during my school days i was not good in physics & add maths..
but now here i am doing engineering..

ENGINEERING!!!? what the hell!!?
well its the only course offered here at the air force college..
have to go through diploma in mechanical aeronautical engineering
in order to become a military aviator.. and a leftenan in the RMAF..
if its not because of aviation, i would've not be here..
probably having fun like my friends out there hangout with buddies,
dating, watching movies, going nowhere..

but me.. my gurl dumped me just because i cant spend most of my time with her..
it feels like im living in an other world different than yours..
trapped in a prison.. sticked with a tight daily routine..
its like a curse for generations of cadets..
dumped once we stepped our feet here..
at least that's what my seniors told me..

my interest is actually.. archeology.. i was more into history during my school days..
i enjoy reading things happened in the past.. i have this curiosity in other places history, cultures, and ancient civilization.. my friends laughed at me for spending hours reading articles in wikipedia.. does it makes me a weirdo? i dont know.. i like topics like:-
wars- nanking massacre.. D-day.. japanese occupation of malaya.. american civil war..
ancient or extinct civilization- maya civ.. machu pichu.. those written in Al-Quran.. n even Bible.. persian.. roman.. greek..
and many more..

in my past, my ambition was to be an archeologist but what about job opportunity?
so i chose to be here.. the air force college.. at least i got paid to study.. yea the government pay me monthly to finish my dip.. but i have to sacrifice my wonder years.. for the sake of my future.. hell ya!



well.. thats all for now folks..

-LIL DEMON-