leaving on a military truck (part II)

*my poyo pic.. huhu

tomorrow i'll be leaving again for our final combat training
that will conclude my military training here
for 4 freakin years..

after that i will start the training for my passing out parade..
yeay!~ free education completed, finally..
dip in mechanical aeronautic engineering..
and a secure steady job awaits me..

its not easy to get here..
its not easy being here..

*to my beloved izzati nadzri,
have fun for ya bandung trip, k..
have a safe journey..

basketball

this evening i played basketball despite my left leg injury..
i ran, i jumped and i laughed..
the doc advised me not to involve with strenuous activities..
but its been awhile since i laughed so much n had lotsa fun..

its not about winning the game..
but its the laughter & joy we had during the game..

thanx everyone..

few last steps.. for a long tough journey..

i shouldn't be saying this since im in military but..
GGGGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
since the final examination, the pressure keep coming continuously...
weeks under the heat of kedah sun-drenched weather..
followed by 8,10,12,14,16km of running with heavy loads on my body over 10kg..
WITHOUT A DAY OF REST
and another few more days in the jungle..

my left leg just recovered..
im not sure if i could face it and survive..

all the best, syahmin!
may the force be with me..
yea.. of course, since im in the air force..
lol..


and when its all over..
i will be preparing for my big day..
commissioned by his majesty..
an officer in the air force..
and a steady job finally..

"an officer and a gentleman"
thats what they keep telling us
here at the officers training centre..
poyo siot~

-leaving on a military truck-

so tomorrow i'll be leaving for a military stuff i wont have to mention over here..
the first time i wont be contacting her for a day or more since we became an item..

i'll be back by friday so i hope she will be fine without me..
dont be sad.. have fun..
i'll be back..
i promise..

i feel like screaming but i dont know why...
like too many things on my mind i dont wanna think about but i have to..
just let me shout.. let me scream.. let me curse..
like a silent volcano waiting to explode..
why? why? why?
is it because of simple little things i ignored as i always did?
this is not me.. definitely not me..'

April 19th

Its 1215H and the bell starts ringing.. “damn.. its Sunday, leave me alone..” I was lying on my bed.. and then I heard a voice “come on, wake up.. its time for lunch!”
“..yea, rite~” so i left my room and looked at the clock.. its about 15mins from 1230H.. “I still have time” so I laid myself on the couch and closed my eyes..

“hey, go get urself a shower, you stinky brat!” I heard a voice again.. but I was too lazy to move my ass.. it was Pejal, my housemate..
Pejal: I said go get yourself a shower, stupid! Its for your own good..
Me:hurm..
For my own good? Since when he became so concerned about me.. even he himself always left the house without taking a shower for lunch every time he becomes so lazy.. and im still lazy to move myself.. or even open my eyes..

Then I remembered about my clothes in the washing machine.. I forgot to hang them so I rushed to the back..
Pejal: finally..
I took my shower and felt quite refreshing.. “pejal got a point.. he’s right.. its for my own good” it was a really hot sunny day by the way..

Then I went for lunch.. pejal asked me;
Pejal: you weren’t on the phone with your girl this morning.. not as usual.. what happened?
Me: its Sunday.. im sure she’s still on her bed.. let her be.. she can only rest on Sundays..
An other friend: so, you guys just talk on working days eh? But not on weekdays.. *giggles
Me: not exactly, stupid!

She did called a few times n text me.. but she told me that she had an appointment with her doctor.. I don’t want to bother.. so, I went online, checking on my fb & fs.. reading birthday wishes from my friends and even strangers.. lol.. I never thought that they still remember my birthday since I was busy with my world and often forget to wish their birthdays..

Pejal came.. “hey, afiq said sergeant called you.. probably about your claim on medical equipment..
“-Oh, what is it this time”
So I shaved my beard.. but pejal asked me to have a game of football video game first until afiq confirmed it..

So we played until pejal received a call..
Pejal:ok, lets go..
Me: lets finish the game first..
Pejal: ok2
Then we walked to the ops room, but on the way, pejal told me to get in the social club first..
Me: wtf?
At first, I was thinking of ignoring him and just move to the ops room instead.. but maybe its ok to follow him.. I stepped into the social club and then………………


I saw to figures on the couch looking at me..
“who are they?”
……
”They look familiar..
……
“Why they look just like my gurl and her brother?”
……
“Yes, they are..”
……
“What are they doing here?”
……
“Why is the cake on the table?”
……

I was confused.. and it was a surprise from my girl.. WOAW~
Nothing like this ever happened in my life before.. then my friends came.. before I cut the cake, me n my girl received a video call.. it was from my family.. damn, they planned it together.. my friends, my family, and my gurl.. and yes, she was the mastermind.. lol.. so we had fun.. and I’m 22.. *sigh*

Baby, thanx for the surprise.. dat was so.. sweeettt.. and thanx from coming all the way from ipoh fer me.. I love you so much..
thanx, nur izzati bt muhd nadzri

-Stockholm Syndrome-

I won't stand in your way
Let your hatred grow
And she'll scream and she'll shout and she'll pray
And she had a name
Yeah she had a name

I won't hold you back
Let your anger rise
And we'll fly and we'll fall and we'll burn
No one will recall
No one will recall

This is the last time I'll abandon you
And this is
The last time I'll forget you
I wish I could

Look to the stars
Let hope burn in your eyes
And we'll love and we'll hate and we'll die
All to no avail
All to no avail

This is the last time I'll abandon you
And this is
The last time I'll forget you
I wish I could

This is the last time
I'll abandon you
And this is
The last time I'll forget you
I wish I could
I wish I could