-25 things-

1) im missing my hometown
2) i hope that i could graduate by june
3) im a bloody RMAF cadet officer
4) aviation is my current obsession
5) ive lost my mobile phone last 2 months
6) im a big fan of final fantasy series
7) currently studying in air force college, alor star (dip in mech aeronautic eng)
8) taken n madly in luv with nur izzati bt muhd nadzri
9) currently using my old nokia n-gage QD with 3 different sim cards
10) currently following naruto & bleach manga & anime
11) not quite friendly, its hard for me to start a conversation with strangers
12) i can sleep anywhere at anytime
13) got my left tibia fractured when i went for survival course, last june
14) AB blood type
15) im so not into politics
16) i hate sore throat!
17) i miss involving with sports n enjoying the game
18) spent 4-5 months walking with crutches (but i received special care from airlines stewardess though.. huhuhu)
19) taylor swift - love story reminds me of her
20) my fate will be decided on feb 24th at institute of aviation medic, kl
21) i sing negaraku everyday
22) doraemon comic was the 1st reading material i read in my life
23) been collecting transformers figures
24) family 1st!
25) my priority is to make her happy no matter what

-Turn Back the Pendulum-

HE

He's been thinking.. What if he just burst out the words.. tell her what she feels about her.. But he was afraid.. afraid that he might lose her forever.. All he ever wanted was for them to be together.. Being together as she's the last for him.. He really hopes that he could reach her hand and she would pull him out of the dark side of loneliness.. To him, she's the only one left for him.. like a diary where he could share the misery life of chasing his uncertain future.. She gave him the fuel that he needed to burn and accelerate.. Make him laugh and happy.. but things have changed since she was taken by a monster who keeps her trapped in a prison of promises.. he really feels he's losing her.. day after day.. she's getting far and far away..

SHE

She seems happy with her new guy.. He fills all her needs.. and do so much things that even he would be out of hands..


so he tells himself that maybe she has found the right person for her.. initially, she never complained.. praised her new guy like he was the one.. the one who cured her with his own elixir.. she's been hurt for far too long.. and as her diary, he knows how deep the wound is and how painful it was when her trust was betrayed by the one she considered her other half..

but now she seems so happy.. happy with her new life.. he knows it is not right to burst out those words.. so he keeps his mouth shut.. for its the better way he could still be with her.. keeping those words in silence..

2 stories..

been awhile since the last time i wrote.. probably quite busy since the new semester have started.. yea its my last semester.. yay!~ cant wait to get my ass outta here..

so.. i wanna tell u guys 2 stories bout friendship n lurve.. (sial.. adekah aku sudah bertukar menjadi seorang mat bunge?? tidak!)


1st story:
i read this story somewhere..
its about a guy n a gurl..
they were friends since little..
best friends..
until the time when they grew up..
this guy keeps a feeling to the gurl..
but he didn't know how to tell her..
and he was afraid that he might
ruin things up..
so he just keep his mouth shut..

1 day
the guy met the gurl and about to tell her his feelings..
but the gurl said she had something to tell him..
she said, she's already taken by another guy
so the guy said.. as a best friend, hes supporting their relationship

few months later
the guy couldn't take it anymore
he luvs this gurl so much
n he really need to tell her
he was afraid of losing her
so he went to her
but the gurl gave him a card
it was a wedding invitation
the gurl was about to marry that other guy
so the guy said he's happy for her

1 day, the gurl died..
the guy went to her funeral..
and he found her diary
it was written:

1 jan:
i told him that i have a relationship with another guy.. and he was ok..
has he not feel the same way i feel bout him? i love him more than just friends..
but he didnt mind at all.. he probably never love me the way i love him

20 nov:
i gav him my wedding card and i was really hoping that he would try to stop it or at least tell me that he luvs me but he didnt

all right now lets get to the 2nd story

2nd story

this guy knw this gurl through mirc..
and she was a friend of a friend of him..
they became close.. n closer..
before becoming best friends..

he kept all of her secrets..
deepest n darkest..
this guy was about to tell her that he likes her..
but a friend of him took her away after knowing about it..
"what a regret to tell him"- said that guy

so.. the guy found another gurl
n the gurl was with another guy
but they still contacting each other
sharing all their stories.. their probs.. their joy..
even when she got her hand fractured..
few years later the guy had her leg fractured too..

but later the guy was dumped by his gurl..
n his best friend, the gurl also left his guy
so the guy said.. this is probably the right time..
but he was afraid that he might jeopardize their friendship..
so he let it be.. n waited for the right time to tell her

but before the time comes..
the gurl told him dat she's with someone new..
he pretended he was ok but actually he was not..
so he said, as a best friend, he will support her relationship..
so he keep being a good listener to her..
bout everything.. even her relationship though its painful..

but 1 day..
the gurl suddenly said she wanted to be his..
so the guy thought she was joking..
until 1 day when she was crying..
n she said she couldnt take it anymore..
the guy was touched.. n finally he can tell her..
tell her dat he luvs her without hesitation anymore..
it used to be "i luv u, buddy.."
bt now the word buddy is no longer needed..
and they end up becoming an item..
and the couple live happily ever after

my best friend, my soulmate partner n my luv

-THE END-
clap.. clap..

its christmas..

today the base was shut down for christmas
but we didn't get our break for christmas
they just give us outings
except for those from rajawali squadron
because they've won the sports carnival

so.. we made a plan to go to bkt merah resort..
with 11 cars participating the convoy
give ourselves a short getaway

yea it was fun..
when seniors and juniors mixed
forget about the damn military college
we had fun

About purple

the ugly black crow just woke up this morning..
back to reality from his wonderland..
it was in his wonderland when he met his long lost purple..
purple used to be part of his life..
but now she's so far away..
and she's changed so much..

but why he keep seeing purple in his wonderland?
whenever he came to the wonderland..
and when the story was about luv..
why it has to be purple?
why not someone else?

purple left him years ago..
and deep inside he knw that he's just not the right guy for purple..
but purple keep coming to the wonderland..
and he just cant figure out the reason why..

but back in reality..
he has to face the fact..
that purple's out there chasing her dream..
and he was never part of it..

wake up, ugly black crow..
you have your own path..
your own dreams..
your own life..
wake up..

Aidiladha break..

i left alor star on friday for penang..
it took about an hour traveling by bus to reach butterworth jetty..
then i took a ferry to the other side..
blah.. blah.. blah..
what im trying to say is..
i slept at the penang international airport..
whahaha.. it was already 2100H when i reached the airport..
but my flight was at 0730H so i asked the person at the information counter
where is the nearest hotel? and she said bout 5 mins from the airport..
by walking? she said no..

i was afraid that im gonna miss my flight
she suggested me to sleep at the airport..
so.. there i was..
sleeping on a massage chair.. lol..

i bought a few reading materials though..
1 of em is a novel,
"Eagle in the Sky" ceywah~..
but after reading few chapters,
i had this feeling;
"poyo punye crite" hahah
the reason i bought it because of the image of a fighter jet at the cover..
well its true what they said..
dont judge a book by its cover..

so i flew back to kuantan on the next morning..
i saw this family.. quite familiar..
so i spoke to the father.. when we arrived in kuantan airport..
uncle nordin.. his twin children were friends of mine..
childhood friends..
we played galah panjang.. cap selipar.. rounders
every evening with my sisters..
when i was like 5-10..
i asked him bout them..
nazim is currently working with him
at his company
while nadia is now a mother!
gosh~ been a long time..

then my parents met em
n we left the airport..
finally.. with my family..

i spent most of my time with them..
then my best buddies..
those ex-smatian..
yea im glad that we're still together..
since secondary school ntil now..
i still hang out with the same faces;
opi, ami, faliq, alimi
(hashim and others wasn't there that time)

on the morning of aidiladha
i saw 3 heads beheaded..
(not actually beheaded la)
huhuhu

n the next day.. i flew back to alor star..
damn..

An Unforgiven Sin

this morning the whole squad went for obstacles training excluding me..
and my juniors went for firearms practice for few days..
so i hid myself inside a classroom doing nothing but reading a comic..

few minutes before 1000H when i almost finish reading the comic..
i heard a voice coming from behind the place i was sitting..
"cadet!"
so i thought maybe it was one of my friends trying to scare me..
in my head in would almost burst these words-
"ko nak ape siall!!?~" without looking behind..
but i had this feeling of maybe i should play safe
so i turned back..

holy crap! its the commanding officer..
the big boss in my place..
"what are you reading?" he asked..
me - comic, sir..
c.o- let me have a look..
so he checked the comic book..
c.o- why are you here?
me- i've been excused from physical training, so i dont have to go for obstacles,sir..
c.o- what happened to you?
me- i got my left tibia fractured, sir.. so i am excused from games, sports, and physical training, sir.. including boots..
c.o- when will you be recovered?
me- probably by this month the doctor will scan my leg for progress..
c.o- well then, read something beneficial
me- yes, sir..
so he hand me back the comic book.. and he left..

then few juniors came to me giving holiday pass for the whole squad..
finally i can go home.. back to my hometown for aidiladha..
although just for 5 days..

later in the evening..
i called my mom telling her the news
and asked her to get me the tickets..
the bus ticket to kuantan has already sold out..
meaning only an option left:-
"everyone can fly"

so my sis booked me flight tickets..
firefly.. which means i have to get to penang airport because there's no direct flight from AOR-KUA..
cant believe i have to spend that much again..
but its ok because i dont get the chance to go back that often..

but my battery was low so i charged it inside the classroom for a few mins..
i felt bored.. everyone was having their sports that evening..
so i kept the hp inside my bag.. and left the classroom..
i joined few people doing push ups
and later i saw my friends were walking around the base..
so i joined them.. and then we went to the basketball court..
watching some of us playing basketball..
a cool game i must say..

then i went back to the classroom..
reached my hand inside the bag..
but the hp is no longer there..
fuck! where did it i left it?
but i still remember putting the hp inside the bag after replying my sis's message.. so.. it could be stolen.. but i dont wanna put the blame on anyone but myself..
damn it.. who stole my old-model hp? the model is no longer in the market.. and i think the price is very cheap if you sell it back..

i double checked the bag.. but still the hp is no where to be found..
and i asked my friends if they see it.. but all answers were the same..
nobody seen it..

stupid.. fortunately i have another hp.. my old nokia n-gage..
each of us have more than 1 hp here in case the administration wanted to confiscate our hp, we have a dummy.. so now im using my dummy the nokia n-gage.. but i asked a friend of mine to get me new numbers.. and i will claim my old number back during this incoming break.. damn it, i really love my nokia 3250 though my friends always told me to buy a new hp..

to the thief, if you are reading this.. please gimme back my memory card because it contains lots of precious memories with high sentimental value to me..

-LD-